"Not what I will, but what You will"

Reminding myself today that His timing is PERFECT!

I read a passage that spoke to me about interfering with God's plan and His will. About how one can force a rosebud open, but in doing so spoils the flower. Oh and what a waste of the complete beauty it would have been had it been allowed to open in it's due time! Realizing, at least in my head, that the only answer is to leave everything to Him, without exception, to bloom in His perfect time. I know this should offer peace and rest....and though slow, I am hopeful that my "head-knowledge" will develop into "heart-knowledge" as well!

Mark 14:36 "Not what I will, but what you will"

Wow. To really LIVE the words of this song...

To Have Discernment

"No desire will ever be placed in you by the Holy Spirit unless He intends to fulfill it. So let your faith rise up and soar away to claim all the land you can discover. ~S.A. Keen

Having one of those days where I'm questioning the purpose of dreaming. Is it simply useless or even worse, a guarantee for disappointment? Is dreaming a waste of time? A distraction from the purpose and reality at hand? Is it a path to inevitable heartbreak?

-OR-

Is it in fact, the active exercise of hope? Believing that there truly is more. Being open to possibilities never even imagined. Perhaps, motivation towards something bigger? And with that, a willingness to risk the chance of heartbreak knowing that in the end IT WILL BE WORTH IT. Is that what dreaming is?

I don't know.
But, if one of my children were asking me this, whether they should abandon dreaming as a means to protect themselves from potential pain or suffering, I would answer with an emphatic "NO!". Not because I do not care for them and their feelings, but because I DO! What they would miss out on if they didn't dream! For at one time, even they were but a dream to me. As is the case with most everything precious in my life. When I consider that, I choose to dream. To believe. In spite of the "logic" (or maybe lie) that says "why bother". It is without a doubt a risk, but certainly a risk worth taking.

Witnessing a dream unfold into reality is like no other experience in life. And realizing that that is God's dream for us, even sweeter.

"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe."
- Anatole France

Why?

I love it when I think I have something figured out, or am at least developing an "understanding", to have it challenged. To find myself at a place full of questions and feel as though God has withdrawn to allow me to seek out the answers. That alone is a gift, I'm learning. And while I toss about all the questions, wrestling to find the answers, what I know is that He IS faithful! And if I will seek after Him with all my heart, He will restore my HOPE! This is exactly where I am tonight. And I am thankful for His mercy that provides this weary soul with truth and hope.

Job 34:10 So listen to me, you men of understanding. Far be it from God to do evil, from the Almighty to do wrong. 12 It is unthinkable that God would do wrong, that the Almighty would pervert justice.


WHY? The Gospel and Suffering audio: WHY3_AUD

It really isn't about me.....at all

You know, I understand that, but sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get it.

Really get it.

Trying to simply be still and absorb it. That alone is a challenge for my fidgety self. My impatient often hurried self. Oh how I don't want to run impulsively ahead of the Lord!

Learning to wait. Understanding that when God delays, He is not inactive. That He is never late. He is aware. He is preparing. And He'll cue me when He is ready for me.....or perhaps better, when I am ready for Him.

How He loves us!