Monday, November 9, 2015

#WaitNoMore


 
I'd like to add.....Adoption is just the beginning of the journey. It's a beautiful step of faith that leads to the rest of your lives! And Church, friends & family, there are going to be a lot of unexpecteds, so remember, those taking this step need your support in every way!

Psalm 68:6 "God sets the lonely in families."

Friday, September 5, 2014

Strong Enough

Matthew West
"Strong Enough"
You must
You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe
Maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough

Thursday, August 7, 2014

It happened today....

I've known it would. 
I wasn't sure when or how, but it was certain to come. 
There were times I was nervous about it, wondering how to respond thoughtfully and truthfully. 

How would I be able to convey in a short reply, an answer the heart and mind of a 4 year old could grasp? 
How do I make sure it is always seen as a positive? 
A blessing for our family.
An answer to prayer. 

That God's beautiful, abundant GRACE brought her to us.
Yes, in a different way than some children are brought to their families....but just as miraculous!

My ears are keen for the word coming from her mouth. 
Adoption. 
Nothing to dread, but everything to celebrate.
Adoption. 
God's perfect plan in our lives being played out.

It happened today.

In an everyday moment, it happened.
Driving down the road, just she and one of her older sisters in the car with me.
Almost talking to herself.
"I love adopting, Mommy! That means you are mine!"
She asked for an image of what adopted means, and I was able to connect her to a movie she and her siblings enjoy watching that gave her a clear visual.
Then, as quickly as it happened, she had moved on to which flavor of ice cream she would have for treat. 

It's one of those moments you wish you could pause and replay again....slowly.....so you could soak every, single moment of it in.
How did she come up with that?
We talk about adoption openly in our home, but never really in a way that singles her out or puts such a "label" on her.
I've often wondered if she even understands since the conversations are often quick and un-detailed when they occur.
She has asked about growing in my tummy, and I've explained that all babies don't come to their families that way. But again....nothing too deep, as she always seems satisfied with the simple answers right now, and I've happily conceded to go at her pace.

But, it happened today.
And all on her own.
And whether she fully understand the weight of her words, I do.
And I receive them as a direct message from My Heavenly Father.
A message of pure love.
A whisper of peace and reassurance to my Mama's heart.

And, I am grateful.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

True Peace

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Dreaming

Dreaming. 
Dreaming is not a sign of discontentment, but rather, the indication that there is a desire to grow. 
Dare to dream.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Abiding

Abiding.

Permanent. Lasting. Constant. Enduring. Stable.

Reminders I regularly need of God's love for me, for I am weak and forgetful. I am doubtful even. But.... I am grateful. Grateful for mercy and grace that abounds. That is new every day. Every day I choose whether or not to accept it. It waits. He waits. Patiently. Longingly. Lovingly.

And He provides reminders that are like serenades to my heart, gently calling me to "COME.". To "TRUST.". To "REST.". 

Reminders like this from my beloved Streams in the Desert....
"The pressure of difficult times makes us value life. Every time our life is spared and given back to us after a trial, it is like a new beginning. We better understand its value and thereby apply ourselves more effectively for God and for humankind. And the pressure we endure helps us to understand the trials of others, equipping us to help them and to sympathize with them."

I am trying to soak this all in. 
Learning His way and will for my life. 
Slowly realizing that true joy, true love are not romantic and beautiful....at least as beauty is often interpreted. They have nothing to do with being happy, as most would imagine happiness. But instead......
.....true love......true joy are an abiding.....a breathtaking abiding that sometimes aches and yet cultivates a heart so full of gratitude that it can't be expressed.

Oh how blessed to have a Heavenly Father that loves us so. 
That loves me so.
That calls to my heart. That never gives up. That doesn't leave or forsake....or even have thoughts of such. I am weak, but HE is strong.